Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Oblogatory Halloween Post

  See what I did there? Obligatory, but with blog? Oh, I am so hilarious. So in the spirit of Halloween (and putting off doing my homework) I thought I'd do this fun Halloween survey I've taken from Kayla.
Five costumes I’ve worn: 
1. Baby Bop. I searched for a whole three minutes to find a picture but unfortunately for you I could not locate one.
2. A Witch. This is actually the one time during my childhood Halloweens that I was not a princess or something nice.
3. Dorm room murder victim of an urban legend. That one was kind of out there.
4. Scary Mask lady. This was last year, very last minute but effective. My friends went as calculators and ipods, and I just grabbed this mask...people kept asking me if I was someone from The Strangers which was fine with me because that movie scared the crap out of me.
5. A hooker. Yeah, I tried to justify this by saying I had the stuff in my closet all ready, and then I realized I was just saying I dress like a hooker :/.

Four costumes I’d like to wear:
1. Bearded Lady. This is ALWAYS on my to-dress-as list, but I never ever do it.
2.  Walter White or Jesse Pinkman from Breaking Bad.
3.  Adam Jones of Tool, the Best Band EVER. I think it would be an appropriate Halloween costume, because I always joke that he kind of looks like he dead. Him or Maynard James Keenan because Maynard has a snazzy wardrobe.
4. Ok, I actually heard this idea from my ceramics instructor but thought it would be hilarious: I want myself and a group of people to dress as the Scooby Doo gang and unmask people at a party. That would be the best.

Three things I’m afraid of:
1.  Medical Settings
2.  People that laugh too loudly
3. Pilates rooms (I work in a Gym and all the equipment in those rooms makes me nervous.)

Two favourite types of candy:
- Reese's Peanut Butter Cups
- Twix

My number one favourite thing about Halloween:
- It's the first day of the holiday trifecta - Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. All the excitement over what people want to be that night, and cheap/free candy.  Scary movies. I love everything about Halloween, I can't pick just one!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Crybaby McComplainey Pants: Life Edition

 That would be me.

 Lately I've felt kind of frustrated with life. I am a planner; I plan things. And I really don't like when things don't follow that plan, whether it's plans to go somewhere, or to do something, etc. Right now it's life.

This semester I should be graduating and moving on to a four year school. That was the idea. I had everything planned and ready but unfortunately it's not going to turn out that way. My living situation is the main reason behind this. I have to take at least a semester off so I can save money and move closer to the school I'm planning on going to. (Driving an hour everyday to and from school just won't work.) Over the summer I kind of thought this is what was going to have to happen but it's been in the the past few weeks that I've "officially" decided it and am coming to accept the decision.

And coming to that decision kind of terrified me.

It's scary for a few reasons. When I turned 18 and graduated high school, I had planned to continue on in college, but I didn't really know the getting into school process and it just kept getting put off. With these plans, days after graduation I entered my first full time job and I was absolutely miserable but I kept telling myself it's only for a little while. A year and a half later I quit my crappy job and went back to school. Now, I feel like I'm about to do the exact same thing. I'm graduating at this school, and them I'm taking time off to start a new job to save money before I get back into school. I'm worried that it's going to be like last time: I'll get stuck there much longer than I intend.

Now that I've accepted that this is just what I have to do, I really got to thinking about school. To be honest, I'm just not sure that it's that important to me. What I guess I mean by that is my ultimate goal is to support myself through photography. Photography is the one thing I'm truly passionate about doing for a slew of reasons that I won't get into because it's all mushy and corny: Just know that I love being behind a camera. And I don't really see that continuing on in school is going to help me much with that goal. I think that the real reason I'm planning on going back after this semester is just because that's what people "have" to do. You go to school. The idea of just not going to school anymore for the rest of my life is weird. Being completely "done with school" is a really strange idea to me.

I don't like change.

It freaks me out. It's something I've been working on, getting over my fear of change. And I think I just realized that the fear of change isn't just about it messing up your routine, or your plans, blah blah blah. This fear of change may be forcing me to keep a plan that I don't really think is right for me anymore.

If you're still here, thanks for taking the time to read this complainy, rambley post. Do you have issues dealing with change? Any tips?

 - Jana